The Next Morning

I feel weak, I feel drained
At the least, I feel pain
At my peak, I feel insane
Is there nothing in my brain?

Find it hard, just to think
Think my brain, began to shrink
Now my face, is in the sink
Just how much did I drink?

My mouth, it's so dry
At first, I ask why
Then I think, and I sigh
Why did I get so high?

My head, starts to ache
The room, starts to shake
Oh, for Christ's sake
How many pills did I take?

But the day, it goes on
And the pain, soon gone
I will do it, all again
Feeling high is my friend

Don't Know What You Got

     People say that you don't really appreciate things until there gone, this past week I found this to be true. For the past week my car has been down with a flat tire, and I had to drive any car I could get my hand on.
     First I had to drive my sister's car, and I hated it. She drives a dodge neon and it's not the best car. Every time I made a turn, I missed my smooth steering. Although my sister's car smells better than mine, I miss distinct smell of my car, something in between vanilla and car engine.
     Next I had to drive my mother's car, which is a newer model Chrysler Sebring. Although this car is nice, steers and rides smoothly, and is an all around better car than mine, it just doesn't compare to the good ole Grand Am.
      Today, I got my car back and I could not be happier. I felt like a kid cruising around on their own after just getting their license. I put the music up at a necessary volume put my windows down, and took my baby for a much needed spin around the neighborhood.

Life

     Life, simply, isn't fair. Today, not too far from my house, a lady and her baby got ran over and killed. Things like this just make me question this world. Why would something this awful happen to a mother who was just crossing a street with her innocent baby. People say everything happens for a reason, but I say fuck that. There is no reason for a baby, who didn't even get to experience much of life, to be killed.
     It hurts me to think of what the father of that baby is going through now. He has this new born gift, that I'm sure he loved dearly and just like that it was taken away from him. Also, he lost his wife assuming he was married to the mother. Just like that this guy's life is turned into ruins. I can't imagine getting news like that.
     I also feel sorry for the people who were involved in the accident who were driving. They must feel absolutely terrible about what they did. They will always have that terrible memory burned in their minds for as long as they live. Those people will never be the same.
     Nothing is promised in life, except that we will one day keel over and die. We can only hope, that when we do, we are ready and willing to accept it.

Today

     Today is Easter, but more importantly, it's my birthday. I've been on this earth for twenty years now. God damn, it feels like I just graduated high school, and now I'm almost done with my second year of college.
     Birthdays are kind of dumb in my mind. In reality it's just another day, but when it's our birthday we expect the best day ever where everything is handed to us. Time for a wake up call, nobody really cares that it's your birthday as much as you do, and the only way to make it a good day is to go out and make it a good one yourself and stop waiting for others to make it special.
     Today I came to a relieving yet scary realization, This is the last time I will illegally be drunk for my birthday. Since I turned twenty today, this will be the last time I'm under the influence for my birthday.
     Wow, life really does go by too fast. 



     

Last Week

     This semester is coming to an end, and I am now trying my hardest to squeeze out the best grades I can. Every time the end of a semester reaches I find myself trying to cram in all my final assignment and studying. The end of the semester usually leads to a lot of stress and pressure to get everything done.
     By now, I am pretty good at pulling everything together and getting the grades I expect, but this semester I find myself pushing extra hard. I am expecting to get the best grades I ever got since grade school.This semester wasn't easy but it seems I'm going to come out with some impressive grades. As of right now I got an A in Statistics. So hopefully all my hard work pays off in the end.

The Hangover

     I was a bit confused when I woke up this morning. When I opened my eyes I saw something different lying next to me. No it wasn't some random girl that I met last night, or anything interesting like that. I woke up next to a peanut butter jelly sandwich, which was placed on a paper plate waiting to be eaten. I do not recall making it, but after seeing a glass of milk waiting to be drank, I'm guessing I was planning on having a late night snack and never got around to it.
     The next thing I noticed was the way my head was pounding. It felt like my skull was closing in around my brain. I got up to go to the bathroom, and every step I took my head would thump in unison with my footsteps. As I relieved myself the almost greenish yellow urine smelled like beer coming out of a keg. Boy, I must have had a long night.
     The only thing that can make this pain go away is more sleep. As my face hit my pillow, I felt as if I dove face-first into an ashtray. I am not a smoker and I hate the smell of it. This scent kept me awake. My stomach was also feeling sick, and i thought about puking. I decided that I didn't have to yack, and continued on with my day. Why do I do this to myself?

Worst Weekend

     This weekend was the worst I've had in a while. I really didn't do shit. I hate sitting in for a whole night ever, let alone a whole weekend, and that's pretty much what I did. I did go out for Friday and Saturday night for a little bit, but all I did was sit in my friend's house. Honestly, the highlight of my weekend was sitting in and watching the Phillies and Flyers games.
     To make the fact that I had a boring weekend worse, I am now coming down with a cold or allergies. My nose has been stuffed or running all day. Hopefully this week will go by fast, and next weekend will make up for this one.